It's 0230

I don't go for'terawih' tonite. I wish i could, but suddenly something happen makes me cannot go there. It is the last night for tadarus, and i really want to join them. So sad, what happen makes my emotion disturbed. Then i started to think about other unpleasant things and make it worse. My bad.

Right now, i am thinking to avoid someone, will that help? I don't know. Maybe i'll give it a try.

Tomorrow, 2 person ask me if i want to join them for some different activities. I can't say i want, also can't say no. It's not i don't want to go, but i'm not that excited. If i think more, there will be a never ending story. Better make a decision faster. I'm not that important anyway.

And what should i do with this uneasy feeling?