Patience

It's been going on for years. I try so much fix myself, even try to fix my broken heart..But the outcome is no difference. Only a slight change on the way to the outcome. Thinking that I've so much, nothing change eventually, is so disappointing.

Last night mak called, she asked me what i was doing then, i said, waiting for maghrib. Then she said, it good to wait for solat. I smiled. Then she tell me to wake up after midnight, or just before subuh to do night pray. She said, "They say, that time is the best time to ask, to plead, to tell all out your problem, because that time, is the time where He is very close to us. If we say anything then, is just like we said it very directly to Him." ... The prophet Muhammad pbuh never leave this solat. But it is not easy to do this constantly, very not easy to wake up when we sleep soundlessly. I want to try it, and try to be istiqamah. Because Allah like if we do something with istiqamah.

I'm not the one to judge what ever i've done, so i was wrong when i said i've done so much but yet no difference. There might be something good behind all of this. I just hope that i've given patience to that i could endure this and let it be let it go after i tried all i can. May Allah blessed me, my family, and our generations, also all muslimin and muslimah..