I'm back

Assalamualaikum..

I just read the last 2 entries a made a month ago. n i was just realized i should write some update of myself here. Bcs it is totally oppose to what i'm saying in the last 2 entries back.

Now, i'm actually in my uni. I went home last month with all my belonging bcs i was to leave this place for real. But yeah, bcs our plan is limited to his decision, so here i am. at the very same place, but insyaAllah, not the same point.

Last sem's result, i actually did pretty good. My average pointer made an increase. Then i was thinking about my bro's idea of do it until i get better. So tho i actually fulfilled the requirements to graduate, and my pointer isn't really bad, but not that really amazing, so i decide to come again with a hope to increase them more. Bcs i got my family whose supported the decision, i felt at ease, at the same time i feel guilty for burdening them with all my expenses here. But mom said, do your best. I will, insyaAllah..

I got myself a baito again, the very same baito that i used to do last sem. Oh yea, baito means part time job. Tho the pay is not much, but i still did it, at least, i can support my meals for a day or 2 with my own effort. I even reduce my meal, for both, health, and saving. I'm saving money right now bcs i spent a lot before for both academics and private stuff. I can't use my allowance as i please anymore. I'm training myself to be a good grown up.

n for some unknown reason, i bought a ticket for this midsem break. Before, i never go home during mid-semester break. Weird, but i have this feeling of wanting to go home badly. N at first mom said ok, i bought, then she called again just to tell me don't. But i already bought. So i'm sorry mom. n bcs i used my monthly allowance to afford the ticket, i only have half of my allowance to spend for this month. So far, i'm doing ok, but only sometimes, i'm worried about money more. I'll surely got myself more part time job if i'm able to, until now, one 1 i manage to do. I kinda pity myself for this situation, but on the other way, i just take it as a precious experience. I'll learn better to get better. I'll pay back for what my family had done for me to support me financially and morally all the while. May Allah bless me, us.