Of Magic and Chemistry
This is the 1st entry i made in 2013. Happy new year. Our team is officially disband on 6th of January. We had our *makan2 session after work. To be honest, our sitting arrangement looks like **gokon where the boys facing the girls and since we have 2 extra girls, which is me and faridah, we sat facing each other. The other kids teasing us saying, "i didn't know u're that kind.." lol at them. Kak Damia brought her family along, her son is so cute and so ***sepet. But since his father is there we cannot pinch the chubby cheeks boy at all. haha
The photo session mostly using Kak Damia's and Kak Fizz's camera, so i don have much with me.
Since that day, i never go to workplace. Want to go there so bad, but i know there wont be the same since most of those from our batch already left. But hey, i can expect something new from new people. Still i might go back, i might not. Lets just see.
Will miss those mischievous kids. I'm having fun working 2 whole month with them. It's a good memory.
faz, syaza, faweedah,mira,tun,is, im, hassan
u'll stay as a really good memories in my
heart, insyaA..
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Work/Study
As my busy schedule finished, i did wrote a letter for job. Not yet any respond from them. Not sure if i even being considered. I am at home now, alone, with only aunt and cousins. It's weird i feel like a stranger in my parents house. Aimichan already got accepted to do master research in upm. Mine still 'in process' status. My future is forever 'in process'. All i can do is pray a lot to be accepted if i meant to continue my studies. I wonder if i should, and i need to think of how to pay for my studies. IF only i got accepted.
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Life
Honestly i don't know what to do with my life. Every day i think this world become scarier that yesterday. Today i got a call persuade me to join their graduate training program, they'll provide allowance. Somehow i don't feel like attending those training. It's not that i am picky or proud, it's just the strong feeling of mine. I wonder why they insist that the program is so good for my future? Why don't they just make a big advertisement and inform everyone instead of doing it by phone? Why do they have to persuade that much even when i gave a hint of rejection. It not a real rejection, just for now i don't feel like join those programs. Who knows one day i'll end up there~
I hope i can spend days at home doing good things, reflect and refine myself. I've been rusty all over, i want to do things i left behind, i want to top up my empty soul and i want to get some rest. This vacation at home might seems like worthless to other people, for me, might be too boring, but i guess this is good for me if i do it correctly.
Till another entry~ a NEET
* eat, having feast with friends or family.
** japanese term for blind date
*** small chinese looking eye
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