new places

worn out, and i'm going to sleep as soon as i'm done writing this. I went to Parit Jawa. It's my first time going there. Well, did i mention that muar ledang or any part of Johor isn't my place? So this parit jawa is about 70km+ from where my sis live. I drove us there. We went to Pasar Awam Parit Jawa, a wet market. Mak got excited seeing all those fresh fish. The market isn't that big, but u can find variety of fish. Most important is, they're fresh! Just brought from Pantai Leka. They had these fresh caught fish the most on sunday. Mak bought 3 types of fish, n prawns. I think she's contented with that. I like going there, i mean, this new place, it has a different vibe, i don know how to describe the feelings i feel about that place, but it's nice. Maybe bcs i like the route we took and it's close to the beach. Seems like i feel good with beach air. I like to know more  new places, i better start from where ever i can reach for the time being.

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I suppose to refine my resume, study on analytical method and work on my application proposal. I have no will to do it now. My eyes are dozing off. I've been working on them since who-knows-when, of course not entirely on them, but it is so depressing. Doing this is really a torture to my emotion. To think about whether i picked a good issue to study, whether it is interesting or important at all, whether the potential SV wants to accept me, am i good enough to do it, if they want an underachiever like me as their student. I dunno how many times i'm depressed along the way. All this while i try to be an optimist, just to hold myself from crying. interacting with aimi somehow help a bit. We set a deadline so we don't procrastinate anymore. 

That's it, wish me luck, pray hard,  I'm working on what i want..if Allah's will...

goodnyte~

pls ignore all the grammatical mistakes, and i'm lazy to use capslock~