Thursday, my morning begun with amina's crying. She wanna sleep, but cannot sleep, and ended up crying ridiculously and everything I've done was useless. Till i called up Chik for help. About 5 minutes later Chik came home and she fell asleep already. Babysitting alone is hard.
Tomorrow's another day to babysit her.
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Give up?
The other voice in my head questioned me about giving up. It's all started with the interview. I prefer to know the exact time for me to give up, so i can do it. The voice was asking about, "why give up so easily?" It does sounds bad if i say i am someone who is easy to give up. Let's elaborate the meaning of give up here. I would say, give up is important, for me, it means, letting go of something. I don't want to live tied to the failed past. I want to let go the dark past. So that's the use of give up here. Just imagine how to live holding to the past, because you decide to not give up. My definition, you can ignore me.
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miscellaneous
Whoops, i just realize that getting back to student life means 'student poverty'. I will not have money as three month before. I can't go to Japan Club on weekend because of classes, and i can't register for Japanese class because i can't afford it. Oh dear oh dear. Self study for N4 i guess. Can't be help then, i'll see what can i do to fix this.
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