Note #45: What Keep Us Sane

In the name of Allah

Few days ago, i read a news that left me with a deep feeling. Some of my friend know my obsession toward japanese. i don't show it really, but somehow it's there open and exposed. My favorite singer is yui. She went with stylized stage name YUI (all in capital letter) and recently changed it to yui. 

She as YUI went on hiatus started from 2013 until now. But she does her singing activity as yui a vocal in her own band. I'm not going to elaborate further about who yui is. The news i mentioned earlier is about this girl. She has a good image as a person who involved in entertainment industry, she's not an idol, but a singer and songwriter. I love her for having the clean image, and i never heard anything bad about her. But recently, there's a news saying she's having something like panic disorder, was rushed to hospital bcs accidentally took up her medicine with alcohol. 

Luckily is it wasn't that bad. Reading the comments of some people about the incident, some said she's having a hard time thinking of her profession. She used to say that her reason to go on indefinite hiatus bcs she's reached her limit. Being in the entertainment industry for 8 years, made her exhausted. I think maybe, just maybe she was forced to do something on demand by fans instead of writing, singing and delivering something she want. All those pressure might lead her to take the medications and the emotional pressure. *I don guarantee this news is completely true. Somehow i feel a bit disappointed bcs i always see her as a calm and composed person, someone with high motivation. But when this happened, it really hit me. Even perfect people are flawed. Nobody's perfect to begin with.

This situation is not something new, not only yui face such problem. Let say if one had one specific goal in their life. Let say, he want to be successful writer, having a lot of readers, having his books as best seller on every one of it, become rich, having a stable life, families, and then? Some people, once they reached what they want, they can't think of anything else. People who realized this earlier might be able to plan something ahead and avoid being don't-know-what-to-do. But human do have a limit no matter how far they can predict what's ahead, or how perfect their plan is. 

Human being are so fragile. It's not that money, attention, fame will promised us a happy life. Sometimes attention is the culprit that kills one's soul(even literally kill them). Sometimes, it's money that bring one down to the lowest level. Sometimes fame make one feels threatened. In other word, human need something that keep them sane. One thing i truly and deeply sure is, human need god to keep them sane. Live the life as god told us to, and He's willing to give us a happy life now and life after-life. InsyaAllah.

*hopefully yui will be able to overcome anything bothers her and calmly continue her life happily.

=) kuroneko