Note #54 : Special Note from Teachers' Day

Bismillah..

I've been contemplating whether to jot down the teaching experiences or not. Because i dislike the job ever since i started it, and now i gradually feeling lighter. A week ago, was the teacher's day. I was very relieved when it was on Friday, which is not on the day i have class. I can't imagine myself getting a lot of 'Happy Teachers' Day' wishes from the kids.

So i return to school for the following week on Monday, this week actually. Suddenly one of my cute student came by and told me she had something for me as Teacher's day present. I was happy. Then we proceed to class after Zuhur prayer. 3 of my students gave me presents. I am happy. Genuinely happy. I never been good at receiving presents. Birthday presents included. But that day, I've been reacting naturally to the kids. 

I dislike kids, even when i was a kid, i dislike kids. This is the truth, being a youngest in the family, i have very little experience with younger children. My first experience with babies and toddler was at the age of 6 or 7. Since i had my first cousin from my mom's side. But really, i cannot like other kids if they're not my cousin, niece or nephew. I strongly believe in that. I especially dislike naughty kids. It's not that i hate them, just i tend to ignore these kind of kids. 

Once a student which is not very attentive in class shake hand with me and said " Teacher i love you.." with a very strong expression. Once a student give a card saying she loves me. I am touched.

Being a teacher, i can't ignore my students. So i really try hard to show them i care. Tho most of the time i failed to pay attention to most of them. Sometimes naughty kids can be very helpful even though most of the time they're annoying. Even naughty kids have a good side. On the other hand, even a good kid have their mischievous side. It's not easy to take care of these kids. They behave randomly, and i always forgot that they are kids, who love to play, and not as capable as adults to handle tiredness and long hour of lessons. 

I hope i can be a better and sweeter teacher. Hopefully i can at least help them with what they should know. I have 6 months more to do that. For teacher's day, I want to say sorry to my students for being mean to them. Kids are amazing. 

=) kuroneko