Note #55: Warm

In the name of Allah

After 2 months of absence from volunteer work, i went back today. A lot of new people, and an old friend i met. Exhibition is different than any of i used to do. Luckily AZ the team leader for today's operation didn't have our name ready and he open the stationing for everyone to choose. I got my favorite one, the second station. At this station, i've to see and talk about worms, cockroaches, flies maggots, and leeches. Everything is the creepy creepers and euww thing. But i am ok as long as i don't have to touch it. 

There's a kid, he is 14, he came by our table and showed interest things on display. This boy, he was with his 10 yo brother. Both are very polite yet eager to know about those creatures. I started to explain about it. Then the big brother, he went to a stroller, and take his baby sister out and let her see what i was talking about. This baby sister seems clueless, maybe she's around 4 yo, but she's very brave to hold the worm. The big bro take initiative to explain about worm, it's not much, but he want to let his sister learn something at least. 

He put her back, after finished with my explanation, i told them there's a science show going on, he straight away pull his younger sibling there. Usually, people reluctant to go whenever i mentioned about the show. But this boys seems very interested. Not to mentioned his responsible attitude. He was the one who take care of both the younger sister and brother. I don't see their parents. The parents must trusted him very well. I feel warm. It's not easy to find a good and responsible brother/son like him. Watching him, i feel warm. May Allah ease his way through his life and he deserve all the kindness in the world for being a good son to his parents.

After that, there's a girl, around 5-6 yo, she came to me crying saying she lost her mother. Since i was in the middle of entertaining a visitor, i asked my colleague to help her find her mom. Just few minutes before that, she was laughing with us while watching some leeches and ask many questions to me. A good girl with good attitude. Not long after that, she found her mom. Lucky. I'm glad that she come to me telling she lost her mom. She definitely know who she's talking to. I can't imagine if there are bad people taking advantage of such situation. Even our place is actually safe, but nobody can guarantee that she's not gonna be on the headline on the next day as a missing kid. The recent 2 yo girl beheaded by her kidnapper creeps me out. Kids are very defenseless. So i call out for all moms and dads, all the guardian of kids, please take all precautions when you're taking your kids out in the public. It's really dangerous nowadays. 

That was the warm incident on my first day back as volunteer. I only have this week for this work. Then i'll be back to my teaching job and final exams. Hopefully another 2 days bring more warm incidents.

=) kuroneko 

Note #54 : Special Note from Teachers' Day

Bismillah..

I've been contemplating whether to jot down the teaching experiences or not. Because i dislike the job ever since i started it, and now i gradually feeling lighter. A week ago, was the teacher's day. I was very relieved when it was on Friday, which is not on the day i have class. I can't imagine myself getting a lot of 'Happy Teachers' Day' wishes from the kids.

So i return to school for the following week on Monday, this week actually. Suddenly one of my cute student came by and told me she had something for me as Teacher's day present. I was happy. Then we proceed to class after Zuhur prayer. 3 of my students gave me presents. I am happy. Genuinely happy. I never been good at receiving presents. Birthday presents included. But that day, I've been reacting naturally to the kids. 

I dislike kids, even when i was a kid, i dislike kids. This is the truth, being a youngest in the family, i have very little experience with younger children. My first experience with babies and toddler was at the age of 6 or 7. Since i had my first cousin from my mom's side. But really, i cannot like other kids if they're not my cousin, niece or nephew. I strongly believe in that. I especially dislike naughty kids. It's not that i hate them, just i tend to ignore these kind of kids. 

Once a student which is not very attentive in class shake hand with me and said " Teacher i love you.." with a very strong expression. Once a student give a card saying she loves me. I am touched.

Being a teacher, i can't ignore my students. So i really try hard to show them i care. Tho most of the time i failed to pay attention to most of them. Sometimes naughty kids can be very helpful even though most of the time they're annoying. Even naughty kids have a good side. On the other hand, even a good kid have their mischievous side. It's not easy to take care of these kids. They behave randomly, and i always forgot that they are kids, who love to play, and not as capable as adults to handle tiredness and long hour of lessons. 

I hope i can be a better and sweeter teacher. Hopefully i can at least help them with what they should know. I have 6 months more to do that. For teacher's day, I want to say sorry to my students for being mean to them. Kids are amazing. 

=) kuroneko

Note #20

In The Name of Allah, The creator of us all...

Recently 

We gain some, and we lose some .. I live believing in this order..

and .. always been worried whenever i got good things/news one after another..

What happened to me, in one week period, i am accepted into university, got a call for interview, passed my JLPT N5 exam.

at the same time.. i lost my 16GB pendrive, there's another thing i lost,  *forgot what it was*

I noticed something, even though i lost something really precious, that pendrive contain my job application letters and other things, i kinda able to let it go. Surely sad, but it didn't bother me as much as it used to.

Allah always so gracious, He give me three things and took only 2 things from me. Praised upon Him for everything, Alhamdulillah *unlimited*

***

Work/ Study 

I'm still volunteering at the science center. 2-3 days a week. Yesterday i went for a medical check up for university registration. So expensive T___T it's RM90. But the good thing is, my current height is 158cm, 2-3 cm taller than i thought i was.. lol..

This is the 2nd week after my interview. I was about to give up on the post, but today, met azizi and he told me something that return my hope. lol, i'm sure he's not lying, but i am such a paranoid to feel good about it, azizi told me what he heard, but i don't want to interpret it. ahaa.. yes, now i am complicated beings..

Mom told me to work first and do part time study. If i got the job, that's what i'm going to do. Not sure if i can part time my study, but going to try first. My brother is doing part time study while working and i really admire him. Of course, he's really busy.

My current status now is a NEET with plans. *lame*

I will register for my MSc first, if i really got the job, i'll postpone my study and go for work. If i don't get it, I'll become a student again and continue my volunteer work at the science center in weekdays, and classes on weekend. Only my plan, I hope either one work, I pray to be given the best for me at the right time. amiin..InsyaAllah..

Note #9 : OJT

In the name of Allah..

Today is my 5th day on job training(ojt). I finally got the hang of it, i mean the open ended questions we should construck and show to our area manager/sv. I'm getting comfortable with the colleague, the seniors, and the staffs. They're actually very kind. I met lots of seniors which are older than me, but we just talk casually using 'aku' 'kau' to address each other. Seems like age didn't matter here. Even some staffs who's training us told me to not call he using honorific like 'kakak'. I'll adapt to the way they prefer.

Today i was sent to station platform. The famous oil platform in there. I got paired with H-san and he's so kind. The senior volunteer there also help us a lot. He shared his experiences with us and taught us on the things exhibit in the station. We have calligraphy  booth and kids love to write the different kind of writings using brush and ink. We prepared a sample of writing vary from arabic, chinese, jawi, thai, to japanese and korean. Lucky for us, there are visitors from thai walk in and i ask the kid to show me how to write the letters. She was so kind and told me how. Some malays kids write a beautiful chinese words using brush, n apparently they studying in chinese school, so LUCKY  >,< 

3 days left to complete my ojt. I'm lacking od area manager's signatures from my 1st and 2nd day. It's hard to find them when i'm sent to different stations. Hope i can get it before my 8th day. Pray for me. 

With love: kuroneko

Foot Note #1

Just drop by to say i'm alive.

i've something to do making my time online limited (still a NEET).

n about the interview mentioned earlier, i got in.

in orientation week now.

Gotta tell all about it later.

Pls come n read again this sunday or monday. It's a promise of course.

Tq for whoever spent the time viewing my blog.

Note #8

It's 22nd of September, My bro's and sis' birthday. I wish them happiness and barakah in their life. May Allah bless u always. ^^

***

Today, i'm done with my first job interview. I met an unexpected person today, and yesterday. But today, wasn't as exciting as the person i met yesterday. But the interviewer asked me if i know her. "I innocently answer yes, she's my jr. " I can't really explained what happen in there, but i let out my otaku-ness. One of the interviewer pointed out my ability to speak japanese. I answer with confidence that i can engage everyday conversation and giving direction in the language. That's my only strong point, but my friend afchan impressed the by doing the introduction of the place in japanese, so she skipped the part where we're needed to pick an object and describe about them. Perhaps i made a grave mistake, i answer a question without firm knowledge, i didn't say i don't know, and it turns out WRONG! Fufufu, i made mistakes. The interviewer are so warm and welcoming, but i believe they'll picked us properly based on our communication skill which i think not at all my strong point, which i think the one i desperately need to polish. I gotta study about communication and presentation skills more from my SV, Prof L. Suddenly i recall the mickey mouse and water. I miss my sv.

Apparently, the interview drained me out. I went with no courage, once i reached the place, i feel so wanting to join the family, they're warm, and we received at least twice good luck wishes from the staff who wandering around. Somehow their welcoming attitude made me feel at ease. Looking at them, i feel like" ah, it's good if i can say something to ease other people like that". Well to do that, not necessarily only when working there. I mean, i want to practice a good way off communicating with ppl. Rather than competing, i would love to work together, and achieve something. Okay, am i sounded like an noncompetitive person now? I'm sure competition is important, but i prefer team work, and at the same time will not give up to be a dependent person. 

For the time being, i haven't found where's my passions are, i only at the stage to recognize the value i want to practice in working places, among anyone i meet. May everyone who came,and coming into my life will teach me something. InsyaAllah..

Note #6

I was half asleep beside Amina today when the call came. Picked it up messily and manage to glance at the caller. Got *doki2 **kincho when noticed it isn't listed in phone memory. Perhaps my brains work miraculously fast, that i prepared to answer it calmly. So it was from the part time job i applied. They asked me to attend the interview on 22nd Sept, this Saturday. Alhamdulillah, i'm lucky.

Then not long after that, Afchan also received the call. We are going there together. I think we're possibly be in same session, or not.. Me at 1130 and her at 12. I'm thinking to look around at career carnival held at Midvalley after that. Only if the time and Afchan have no problem with it. Shall pray hard and prepare well for the interview, this will be my 1st interview for job hunting. Hoping to be given the opportunity, insyaAllah.

*onomatopoeia of heart beat,  
**nervous


ps: for while, i almost forgot my intention to further study~ :O