Note #54 : Special Note from Teachers' Day

Bismillah..

I've been contemplating whether to jot down the teaching experiences or not. Because i dislike the job ever since i started it, and now i gradually feeling lighter. A week ago, was the teacher's day. I was very relieved when it was on Friday, which is not on the day i have class. I can't imagine myself getting a lot of 'Happy Teachers' Day' wishes from the kids.

So i return to school for the following week on Monday, this week actually. Suddenly one of my cute student came by and told me she had something for me as Teacher's day present. I was happy. Then we proceed to class after Zuhur prayer. 3 of my students gave me presents. I am happy. Genuinely happy. I never been good at receiving presents. Birthday presents included. But that day, I've been reacting naturally to the kids. 

I dislike kids, even when i was a kid, i dislike kids. This is the truth, being a youngest in the family, i have very little experience with younger children. My first experience with babies and toddler was at the age of 6 or 7. Since i had my first cousin from my mom's side. But really, i cannot like other kids if they're not my cousin, niece or nephew. I strongly believe in that. I especially dislike naughty kids. It's not that i hate them, just i tend to ignore these kind of kids. 

Once a student which is not very attentive in class shake hand with me and said " Teacher i love you.." with a very strong expression. Once a student give a card saying she loves me. I am touched.

Being a teacher, i can't ignore my students. So i really try hard to show them i care. Tho most of the time i failed to pay attention to most of them. Sometimes naughty kids can be very helpful even though most of the time they're annoying. Even naughty kids have a good side. On the other hand, even a good kid have their mischievous side. It's not easy to take care of these kids. They behave randomly, and i always forgot that they are kids, who love to play, and not as capable as adults to handle tiredness and long hour of lessons. 

I hope i can be a better and sweeter teacher. Hopefully i can at least help them with what they should know. I have 6 months more to do that. For teacher's day, I want to say sorry to my students for being mean to them. Kids are amazing. 

=) kuroneko

Note #20

In The Name of Allah, The creator of us all...

Recently 

We gain some, and we lose some .. I live believing in this order..

and .. always been worried whenever i got good things/news one after another..

What happened to me, in one week period, i am accepted into university, got a call for interview, passed my JLPT N5 exam.

at the same time.. i lost my 16GB pendrive, there's another thing i lost,  *forgot what it was*

I noticed something, even though i lost something really precious, that pendrive contain my job application letters and other things, i kinda able to let it go. Surely sad, but it didn't bother me as much as it used to.

Allah always so gracious, He give me three things and took only 2 things from me. Praised upon Him for everything, Alhamdulillah *unlimited*

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Work/ Study 

I'm still volunteering at the science center. 2-3 days a week. Yesterday i went for a medical check up for university registration. So expensive T___T it's RM90. But the good thing is, my current height is 158cm, 2-3 cm taller than i thought i was.. lol..

This is the 2nd week after my interview. I was about to give up on the post, but today, met azizi and he told me something that return my hope. lol, i'm sure he's not lying, but i am such a paranoid to feel good about it, azizi told me what he heard, but i don't want to interpret it. ahaa.. yes, now i am complicated beings..

Mom told me to work first and do part time study. If i got the job, that's what i'm going to do. Not sure if i can part time my study, but going to try first. My brother is doing part time study while working and i really admire him. Of course, he's really busy.

My current status now is a NEET with plans. *lame*

I will register for my MSc first, if i really got the job, i'll postpone my study and go for work. If i don't get it, I'll become a student again and continue my volunteer work at the science center in weekdays, and classes on weekend. Only my plan, I hope either one work, I pray to be given the best for me at the right time. amiin..InsyaAllah..

Note #3

In the name of Allah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim..

Remember i told about my proposal application? Now i'm done with it. Sent to the potential supervisor and got the reply. There are different versions of this application thingy, someone told me I've to find the sv first, have him/her read my proposal, sort everything out then apply. What i was told by the lecturer, she told me to apply, let see if i meet all the requirements and got accepted, the sv will come after that. I was so paranoid thinking of all the possibilities, I've infected by 'what-if' syndrome now.

So i decide to just do as told, ah, but the application fees is cost something.. -__-" So i haven't apply, I'll take sometime to calm down. Btw, it'll take sometime bcs i need to get referees for my application..gotta contact my last sv to get it. My head in a mess.

Leave that aside, i'm trying on job hunting too. Most of the jobs appeared for application requires experience, at least 1 year. Where do i get that experience? I only have 2 month internship experience. Gotta  include it in resume. I wish to do something related to environment, i'm interested. Few encourage the fresh graduates to apply. I will try my luck.

I have to do many things. The mess with the mentioned applications make me forgot about JLPT. I still need to look for the exam format, the questions, the syllabus. My books seems to be quite hard to understand. I need aid from the internet sources for my revision, also i might contact sensei for grammatical problems. Will use the internet wisely while it's still here. I've 2 month before JLPT.

Maybe there are still a lot in me, can't find the proper word to flow it out. I end it here for today. Until next time.

ps: since i've change my blog title (Notes of a NEET), i'm going to count my entries with numbers. it's troublesome to think of the title. This is note 3, this should be note #1 and note #2