Note #22

Dengan nama Allah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim..

Alhamdulillah pendrive chibi maruko dah jumpa. Dalam bakul baju. Tah kenapa boleh ada kat situ tak tau. Gembira. 

Rubik/Puzzle Cube

Puzzle cube yang kita bole pusing2 kan dengan tujuan nak samakan warna setiap sisi tu biasa digelar rubik, walaupun berjutaa produk tu boleh didapati dari China. Produk China murah, kualiti ok je. Kalau harapkan cap rubik, memang ibarat keje 2hari, gaji tu untuk beli rubik je. Aku kini selaku pekerja part time merangkap NEET memang xmampu la. Puzzle 3x3x3 dah reti selesaikan, kiranya nak celen yang baru la pulak, 4x4x4, malangnya belum sempat habis berguru dengan Rob, dah hancur puzzle tu. Xberkualiti rupanya. Dah mengadu kat mira dah, dia sensei puzzle aku, harap2 dapat jumpa mira cepat mintak dia pasangkan balik..

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Rindu

Kawan kelas masa kat yu dulu dah nak kawen. Wahh, tumpang gembira, tahniah. Dia bukan orang pertama dari budak2 kelas aku dulu yang nak kawen, dah ade dah kawen dah pun, tapi terasa kot bila dia umumkan dia dah bertunang. Sebab dia ni aku anggap kawan kot, bukan sekadar budak kelas. Ape pun, semoga berbahagia hingga ke syurga dengan pilihan hati, insyaAllah. 

Rindu bumi kenyalang, rindu tempat menimba ilmu. Rasa nak nangis, ada skali aku rasa nak nangis dekat bilik k4d yang aku diam masa belajar dulu. Memang nostalgia, rasanya kalau aku jenis yang banyak duit dah pergi kot lawat adik2 kat sana, cikgu2 kat sana, kucing2 pun.. Rindu semua tentang uni, rindu sarawak. Entah bila lagi dapat jejak tanah sarawak, entah bila lagi dapat menatap langit cantik sarawak. Tu lah kalau aku dapat kerja kat Kuching tu macam best jgk la, at least tempat yang aku suka.^^ 

Allah, temukanlah aku dengan kuching/sarawak lagi, berkali-kali lagi harapnya.

Note #21

In the name of Allah, The Creator...


Thursday, my morning begun with amina's crying. She wanna sleep, but cannot sleep, and ended up crying ridiculously and everything I've done was useless. Till i called up Chik for help. About 5 minutes later Chik came home and she fell asleep already. Babysitting alone is hard.

Tomorrow's another day to babysit her.

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Give up?

The other voice in my head questioned me about giving up. It's all started with the interview. I prefer to know  the exact time for me to give up, so i can do it. The voice was asking about, "why give up so easily?" It does sounds bad if i say i am someone who is easy to give up. Let's elaborate the meaning of give up here. I would say, give up is important, for me, it means, letting go of something. I don't want to live tied to the failed past. I want to let go the dark past. So that's the use of give up here. Just imagine how to live holding to the past, because you decide to not give up. My definition, you can ignore me.

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miscellaneous 

Whoops, i just realize that getting back to student life means 'student poverty'. I will not have money as three month before. I can't go to Japan Club on weekend because of classes, and i can't register for Japanese class because i can't afford it. Oh dear oh dear. Self study for N4 i guess. Can't be help then, i'll see what can i do to fix this.

Note #20

In The Name of Allah, The creator of us all...

Recently 

We gain some, and we lose some .. I live believing in this order..

and .. always been worried whenever i got good things/news one after another..

What happened to me, in one week period, i am accepted into university, got a call for interview, passed my JLPT N5 exam.

at the same time.. i lost my 16GB pendrive, there's another thing i lost,  *forgot what it was*

I noticed something, even though i lost something really precious, that pendrive contain my job application letters and other things, i kinda able to let it go. Surely sad, but it didn't bother me as much as it used to.

Allah always so gracious, He give me three things and took only 2 things from me. Praised upon Him for everything, Alhamdulillah *unlimited*

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Work/ Study 

I'm still volunteering at the science center. 2-3 days a week. Yesterday i went for a medical check up for university registration. So expensive T___T it's RM90. But the good thing is, my current height is 158cm, 2-3 cm taller than i thought i was.. lol..

This is the 2nd week after my interview. I was about to give up on the post, but today, met azizi and he told me something that return my hope. lol, i'm sure he's not lying, but i am such a paranoid to feel good about it, azizi told me what he heard, but i don't want to interpret it. ahaa.. yes, now i am complicated beings..

Mom told me to work first and do part time study. If i got the job, that's what i'm going to do. Not sure if i can part time my study, but going to try first. My brother is doing part time study while working and i really admire him. Of course, he's really busy.

My current status now is a NEET with plans. *lame*

I will register for my MSc first, if i really got the job, i'll postpone my study and go for work. If i don't get it, I'll become a student again and continue my volunteer work at the science center in weekdays, and classes on weekend. Only my plan, I hope either one work, I pray to be given the best for me at the right time. amiin..InsyaAllah..

Note #12

Just came back from the doctor's. Was accompanied my aunt to buy food stock for the week and stopped by at this clinic. I had my ribs aching for almost 3 weeks. This is the 2nd time i go to the doctor. He told me one of my rib are swelling, that's why i feel the pain every time i inhale deeply. That was caused by cold water i used to take a bath. Since i worked, i always took my bath late at night, around 10-12 and i exposed to air-cond the whole day. A month ago i had cough, and not so long after healed, few days ago i got it again. Luckily i take initiative to buy the expectorant syrup immediately and now seems like almost gone. Pray for my health, and my families' health too. 

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Work

The training is still ongoing. We done so many things. I accidentally willing to take the task to decorate the socks we will use for coming program(decorate it like a puppet). So i did it, and it require a lot of patience and ideas. Lucky for me my team mates help a lot. We also have to sew up an amount of cotton balls, 3 person are in charge of it. But it takes time. I finished my socks decoration and help them with cotton balls. Up until now, 4 more needed. My friends and i always end up prick our fingers with the needles. 

Will show the pic of puppet socks later..

This probably going to be the last weekend i have my holiday. Starting 10th of november, we're going to be very busy with the new program in the science center. So i'll have it wisely. Less than a month before JLPT. So scared. I memorize very little of kanji. I'll try to study on weekend or after work. I have to, i'll try not to sleep so early and stop internet'ing..

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random

I read Bumi Cinta on my way home from work. I read about Sabra and Shatila massacre. That made me shed tears. They are so cruel, how can a human treat other human that way. What right do they have to do that? Even the tragedy was so long ago, but i believe most muslims never forget that. The innocent people was killed, even the children, and they shamelessly continue the killing until today. Just wait for the punishment, the equivalent one, no one can do that except Allah. Allah love is for those who died in sabilillah.   Let us improve ourself to be a better muslim, the one who humbly dedicate out life only to Allah. Insyaallah our life and death will be in iman and islam. Ameen.

Think that's all for this entry, until the next one.. May Allah bless us

Note #8

It's 22nd of September, My bro's and sis' birthday. I wish them happiness and barakah in their life. May Allah bless u always. ^^

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Today, i'm done with my first job interview. I met an unexpected person today, and yesterday. But today, wasn't as exciting as the person i met yesterday. But the interviewer asked me if i know her. "I innocently answer yes, she's my jr. " I can't really explained what happen in there, but i let out my otaku-ness. One of the interviewer pointed out my ability to speak japanese. I answer with confidence that i can engage everyday conversation and giving direction in the language. That's my only strong point, but my friend afchan impressed the by doing the introduction of the place in japanese, so she skipped the part where we're needed to pick an object and describe about them. Perhaps i made a grave mistake, i answer a question without firm knowledge, i didn't say i don't know, and it turns out WRONG! Fufufu, i made mistakes. The interviewer are so warm and welcoming, but i believe they'll picked us properly based on our communication skill which i think not at all my strong point, which i think the one i desperately need to polish. I gotta study about communication and presentation skills more from my SV, Prof L. Suddenly i recall the mickey mouse and water. I miss my sv.

Apparently, the interview drained me out. I went with no courage, once i reached the place, i feel so wanting to join the family, they're warm, and we received at least twice good luck wishes from the staff who wandering around. Somehow their welcoming attitude made me feel at ease. Looking at them, i feel like" ah, it's good if i can say something to ease other people like that". Well to do that, not necessarily only when working there. I mean, i want to practice a good way off communicating with ppl. Rather than competing, i would love to work together, and achieve something. Okay, am i sounded like an noncompetitive person now? I'm sure competition is important, but i prefer team work, and at the same time will not give up to be a dependent person. 

For the time being, i haven't found where's my passions are, i only at the stage to recognize the value i want to practice in working places, among anyone i meet. May everyone who came,and coming into my life will teach me something. InsyaAllah..

Note #4

Woke up not so fresh today, since i had almost 2 hrs driving yesterday and persist to stay up late /blame onizuka for that/. It was raining, i'm suppose to meet up with afchan for some part-time job hunting. I have it postponed for an hour bcs the rain don't stop until just now. So yeah, i still have a bit of time to write here.

I'm so overwhelming with YUI feelings, this is the first time i talk about fandom here. SheLoves Me is too much, too awesome. I wish i can have it. Hope my acquaintance  taking order for that. I never had a decent hobby since mangas collection. I can be proud of mine. Now I have a strong desire to collect YUI's. I wouldn't do it overboard, just as i afford. So i have a strong desire to work to collect my future tuition fees, my fandom, and my travel expenses. Let's hope for a better future..InsyaAllah, amiin..

Note #3

In the name of Allah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim..

Remember i told about my proposal application? Now i'm done with it. Sent to the potential supervisor and got the reply. There are different versions of this application thingy, someone told me I've to find the sv first, have him/her read my proposal, sort everything out then apply. What i was told by the lecturer, she told me to apply, let see if i meet all the requirements and got accepted, the sv will come after that. I was so paranoid thinking of all the possibilities, I've infected by 'what-if' syndrome now.

So i decide to just do as told, ah, but the application fees is cost something.. -__-" So i haven't apply, I'll take sometime to calm down. Btw, it'll take sometime bcs i need to get referees for my application..gotta contact my last sv to get it. My head in a mess.

Leave that aside, i'm trying on job hunting too. Most of the jobs appeared for application requires experience, at least 1 year. Where do i get that experience? I only have 2 month internship experience. Gotta  include it in resume. I wish to do something related to environment, i'm interested. Few encourage the fresh graduates to apply. I will try my luck.

I have to do many things. The mess with the mentioned applications make me forgot about JLPT. I still need to look for the exam format, the questions, the syllabus. My books seems to be quite hard to understand. I need aid from the internet sources for my revision, also i might contact sensei for grammatical problems. Will use the internet wisely while it's still here. I've 2 month before JLPT.

Maybe there are still a lot in me, can't find the proper word to flow it out. I end it here for today. Until next time.

ps: since i've change my blog title (Notes of a NEET), i'm going to count my entries with numbers. it's troublesome to think of the title. This is note 3, this should be note #1 and note #2

What's tough

Rejection is tough enough, but the other worse thing is when you don't know what you want, what you should, and what to do...

Then the feeling like, " I lost and I'm losing" will be haunting...

World are wonderful, but at the same time could be really challenging and might be cruel..that's when you feel how stray cats live everyday..

But thank you Allah that,

~even stray cat knows Him~

Can i do it?

Even for just once in my life, i really wish that someone will say "u can do it" to me, with a strong belief and really means it.

~ even stray cats know God~

Si Duka lwn Si Suka

Resmi hidup, x semua berlaku seperti yang kita harap, dan jangka. Kes saya pula, rasa boleh buat tak semestinya boleh buat dengan betul. Yang menilai kerja2 saya orang lain, yang pakar dalam bidang itu. Cuma agak kecewa, bila kita yakin kita tahu tentang sesuatu, tapi sebenarnya tidak. Itulah yang saya rasa hari ini. Terasa seperti dicampak ke takuk lama. Mungkin sebenarnya saya tak pernah menginjak ke takuk baru pun. Saya tak tahu macam mana harus saya terima rasa ini, bagaimana cara hamba yang bersyukur menerima berita kurang senang?

Kadangkala Si Duka datang menyapa, "Saya rasa kamu perlukan saya, dah lama kamu bersama Si Suka, menjadikan kamu jadi seolah2 lupa pada yang Maha Esa, Dia menghantar saya sebagai teguran, jadi saya datang untuk mengingatkan, biarlah Si Suka pergi sebentar..."

Saya cuba membuka lebar hati saya menerima kehadiran Si Duka. Walaupun kehadiran Si Duka bermakna tiada lagi rasa senang, tapi saya perlu yakin bahawa, Si Duka datang untuk menjanjikan ketenangan, untuk menyelamatkan saya dari terus hanyut.. Si Duka datang untuk memberi saya peluang cermin diri, jgn bangga diri dan jgn lupa pencipta.

Hamba memang hina jika lupa pencipta, umat memang biadap jika lupa rasul..Saya tidak mahu tergolong dalam dua golongan ini, saya bersyukur kerana Si Duka datang menyapa pada saat ini..Semoga dosa2 saya diampunkannya..

Cuti pun berakhir

Semalam, bro call, saje katanya. Lama x bercakap. Fb pun x on. Kami memang jarang bercakap melalui telefon. Selalu, fb saya memang selalu sangat on, pantang ada masa, online aje. Selalunya juga, apa2 update dan berita2 terbaru bro memang saya tau melalui fb lah. Waktu2 senggang dia, beliau akan online, tidaklah sekerap saya. Macam tu juga sis. Update beliau, saya banyak tahu melalui blog beliau, selain berita2 dari mak. Mak selalunya jadi penyampai cerita2 terbaru bros dan sis. Haritu mak bagitau, bro tanya saya macam mana sekarang, saya dapat agak, mesti sebab fb. Fb saya dah deactivate sementara, tak fikir panjang, sebab kegunaan rasmi dah lepas, terus deactivate untuk memberi ruang dalam sem akhir senior year ni. Saya fikir itu lebih baik.

Kami berbual panjang juga, jarang dapat berbual begitu kecuali kami bersemuka. Lepas tu saya perasan satu perkara, kadang2 kita x nampak orang tu depan mata, tapi bila nampak di alam maya, dah cukup untuk bagitau kita yang dia ok, she/he is doing fine, like always. Tapi bila di alam maya pun x nampak, kita boleh rasa sedikit risau, sedikit pelik. Kawan2 baik pun tertanya2 masa saya menghilang. Cuma mereka dapat agak sebab saya pernah bagitau akan deactivate sementara ni.

Macam manalah nanti bila orang yang kita sayang kita x nampak di mata, x dapat dengar suara, x nampak kesan pun di alam maya. Saya terfikir hal ini. Lagi2 kalau keluarga. Tak selamanya kita akan berjumpa, bersemuka. Yang pasti, suatu hari nanti, kita memang akan terputus hubungan dengan orang2 tersayang, orang2 terdekat. Masa itu nanti, kita sorang2 akan berada di satu tempat asing, yang membezakan ialah apa yang kita kerjakan di dunia. Bukan wang dan harta, tapi satu ukuran yang kita x dapat nak cek statusnya, bukan macam kredit henfon yang boleh dicek setiap masa.

Bagus juga peranan social networking. Boleh menghubungkan individu yang saling mengenali tanpa suara, dan visual yang nyata. Berbaloi untuk diteruskan, tapi perlu kawal masa yang diluangkan. Kes saya, saya terpaksa rehat kerana gagal memberi ruang untuk perkara wajib diutamakan. Semoga Allah menjaga kita walau di mana kita berada.

Ps: Maka, hari ini, secara rasmi cuti tengah sem berakhir..back to work..

Mula cuti

Dah lama x bersantai hujung minggu dengan lapang. Assignment belum jalan, sebab ada satu je baru, lab x boleh diteruskan sebab sampel2 baru belum ada. Tiba2 rasa risau pulak bila tengok kawan2 coursemate buat ot kat lab, dah mula dari semalam. Rasa nak cepat2 pergi sampling lagi. Nak manfaatkan cuti seminggu ni kat lab, sebolehnya la.

Hari ni, nasib kurang baik. Pagi2 dah tergolek kat kafe, memang saje je pilih tempat ramai audience ek. Ok, tergolek tu melampaulah, termelutut sebenarnye. Malu weh. Siap ada orang tanye, "ok x?" Saya jawab ok ok ok..tak tau berapa kali cakap ok, sambil bagi isyarat tangan ok2 dan gelak cover malu. Itulah permulaan cuti. Harap2 xde lagi siri tergolek di tempat awam lepas ni. T_T~

Ps: Susah juga jaga makan. Perut makin sensitif, asyik kena fikir pasal makan je sekarang, walaupun selera kurang.

#3 -

Semakin dewasa semakin kirang ikhlas. Kalaulah hati suci bersih tu boleh dikekalkan dari zaman kanak2 sampailah dewasa, pasti konflik di dunia ni berkurangan. Saya masih dalam kepompong pelajar, masih jauh dari masyarakat, masih tidak bergaul dan kenal dengan masyarakat. Selalu saya fikirkan, macam mana bila tibanya hari itu nanti. Bila saya perlu masuk sebati dengan masyarakat, bakal melihat dan melayan karenah manusia2 di sekeliling. Adakah hidup saya akan berlangsung seperti kebanyakan orang? Atau kurang daripada kebanyakan orang? Impian2 yang pernah ada dan masih ada, masihkah ada peluang untuk dilaksanakan, hidup bagaimana yang menanti saya nanti apabila bergelar dewasa. Dengan orang bagaimana yang akan saya hidup, bagaimana keadaan kesihatan. Semua itu sering bermain di fikiran saya. Tapi yang paling penting, hidup bagaimana yang saya harapkan??


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Tak sedar sejak bila, ada beberapa perkara yang makin hilang nilainya. Salah satunya, senyum..watashino egao ga, nanno tame ni....

Why bother~

This sem, my lecturer have a very strong passion to change the way we behave in class. He make us do a lot of presentations, and group works, always tell us to ask, and firmly states that, " no silly questions exist, only silly answer do". We, always as usual, even for a year and half with him, still the same. Maybe 0.0001% there are change. Veeery small.

Today, he ask us to comment on other groups presentation, to help them improve, and to tell them you are doing good. Then, we hardly give any comment. Then he said, " i think you need to learn how to praise people, and how to help people..this is very bad..".

I think that people all over the world are practicing this behavior. Not helping people, but like to condemn. People never care about someone not related to them. Like us, about 73 students, always go to the same class almost everyday, for about 3 years now, we never care about other people. Of course when there are group work, we choose our own group, and never bother to listen to others, all that matter is, we get the marks for the assignments. So, no wonder everybody do as everybody other than their circles are not important. We failed to make 73 as 1. Self-oriented is everybody's principle.

We humankind, are not-so-loving creature.

ps: tapi, kebanyakan bukan semua. Ubah2lah yang mana patut.

#2 -

Tenet free kat kolej x dapat dua tiga hari ni. Kenalah pakai broadband, dan kebetulan pulak dia mau slow. Tengah tunggu page load, semua rasa yang saya mau tulis dah hilang. Kebelakangan ni entri2 beremosi gusar, resah. Jadi eloklah juga kali ni rasa tu x disampaika. Memang kalau sabar sikit, rasa kurang senang tu akan berlalu. Bukankah ada satu kata2 ni, bunyinya lebih kurang, "kalau tiada jalan keluar pada satu2 masalah, insyaAllah sabarlah penyelesaiannya..".. Tapi tulah, bukan semua orang boleh sabar, malah, ramai yang tak tahu sabar tu macam mana.

Sejak mula kerja2 lab, selalu muncul rasa takut menghadapi hari esok.

Semoga Allah memilih saya menjadi orang yang sabar.. Sesungguhnya dia bersama orang2 yang sabar..

Resah

Kadang2 ada situasi yang menyebabkan kita jadi pentingkan diri. Sama ada kita dapat atau kawan kita yang dapat. Tapi, pilihan untuk tidak dapat sangat buruk. Sebab nak tak nak, kena juga dapatkan, mungkin kena cari dengan lebih teliti. Ini menyusahkan. Tak tahulah macam mana nak elak perkara begini. At the end everybody is selfish.

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Saya takutkan perubahan, walaupun tahu perubahan itu pasti dan sentiasa... T_T

Nikmat dan berkat..

Ramai yang sedang menonton AJL sekarang ni. Saya ramalkan, bila juara lagu diumumkan nanti, akan kedengaran jeritan2 peminat, walaupun hanya menonton dari kaca tv, mereka sangat eksaited. Saya, memilih untuk menonton movie hong kong , Sound of Colours yang dah lama, dah lapuk, mungkin juga dah pernah tengok, tapi x ingat..

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Memikirkan keadaan saya sekarang, sangat teruk. Taku serba-serbi. Paling takut, takut susah. Padahal anggota cukup, susah2 pon, tak lah sesusah orang buta, orang kudung, orang sakit. Susah2 pun, boleh juga cuba buat sesuatu untuk mengatasi menggunakan anggota yang lengkap ni. Paling2 susah pun, Allah ada untuk membantu, mendengar rintihan, dia sayang hambanya tak terhitung, cuma kita je yang selalu lupa, alpa...

Bila teringatkan orang2 buta, kurang upaya, buat saya sedar, sangat2lah beruntung hidup saya ni, cukup makan pakai, ada keluarga, ada mak ayah, walaupun sekarang ayah dah takda, ada kakak abang, makcik pakcik, sepupu sepapat. Ramai lagi orang tak punya semua ni. Ada peluang belajar kat u, ada orang orang sanggup belanja yuran semua. Memang beruntung, memang patut bersyukur banyak2 dengan kurniaan ni, rezeki ni. Orang buta, nak baca buku pon susah, nak cuba masak pon susah, nak kenal warna tak dapat. Saya, semua yang disebut tu boleh buat dengan mudah. Semua tu nikmat...Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdullillah..

Allah sayangkan hambanya bukan dengan beri nikmat..sebab tu kita hidup di negeri sementara ni tak perlu kejar nikmat sangat, yang perlu dikejar berkat, antara berkat dan nikmat, berkat yang lebih penting, berkat tak melalaikan, nikmat besar kemungkinan melalaikan. Jadi, walaupun tanpa nikmat, hidup tak kosong selagi mengundang berkatNya. Dia maha adil. Jadi marilah sama2 memohon redha dan berkat dari Dia..

Year End Sale, Y.E.S, but NOT all

Bila hujung2 tahun macam ni, mmg ada jualan murah di mana2 saja. Kebiasaannya memang ramai yang mengambil peluang berbelanja pada waktu begini kerana harga barangan memang jauh lebih murah daripada waktu biasa. Sogo salah satu tempat yang mengadakan jualan dengan potongan harga dan memang menjadi tumpuan pembeli.

Tadi aku ke sogo, mak nak bli beg baru, bila pusing2 mata tertangkap la satu pattern bag yang dia suka, bagi aku pun, boleh tahan la, tapi bila tengok harga, Rm400++. Oleh sebab aku bimbang duit bakal keluar bak satu tempayan air ditelangkupkan, maka aku berkata, " Kalo beli ni, rasanya tuhan tanya juga esk2, nak jawab apa?..".. Sebenarnya aku tiru ayat yang sama yang mak pernah cakap satu masa dahulu..he he..mak x jadi beli beg tu. Alhamdulillah, memilih satu lagi beg yang harganya lebih rendah.

Aku pula, nak kasut. Dah satu sem kasut tembus tapak. Pusing2, jumpa kasut harga dekat rm200, memang rasa nak beli. Kemudian, giliran mak pula cakap benda yang sama, takut tuhan tanya esk2.. aku pun tak jadi beli, beli kasut lain sebagai ganti yang harganya jauh lebih rendah, x sampai seratus ringgit pun..Alhamdulillah kali ke-2.

Aku dalam proses untuk berjimat dan beringat ketika berbelanja. Takut lambat hisab di padang mahsyar kelak, sebab sangkut kat part membelanjakan harta di dunia ni.. Moga2 usaha menjadi, mari sama2 berusaha..

Gambar hiasan semata-mata

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Bila exam dah habis , tangan mula rajin mau berlari2 sambil melompat2 atas keyboard. Penyakit x reti kemas barang utk dihantar ke stor datang lagi. Macam biasa, aku spare lebih dua hari antara waktu habis exam dan tarikh blik. Pelik bila tgk orang lain balik sehari lepas exam, ada yang lagi excited, habis paper tengahari, malam terus balik. Wahh2..Aku serik sebab pernah buat kerja gila habis paper pukul 12, pukul 3 dah nak terbang.. Xmau lagi macam tu..penat, kelam kabut..

Berniat nak jumpa SV utk projek ni, cuma belum punya tenaga nak mencari dia, nak menjenguk lab pun belum kesampaian. Nak setelkan bahan2 yang diperlukan..dari haritu lagi x selesai2 jgk.. T_T

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Moood nostalgia sekarang, mulalah aku mahu mengugel dan meyutiub cari lagu2 lama dulu..Rindu rindu rindu~ bagi aku, keadaan dulu lebih selesa berbanding kini, sebab tu aku rindu..Kena betulkan diri lah macam ni~

ps: Kenapa saya suka drama jepun? Sebab, drama jepun konfliknya bukan cinta semata2, dan x menggusarkan hati...hmm

Hujung sem 1- 10/11

Hujung sem kembali lagi. Kali ini perjalanan satu sem terasa sungguh singkat..mungkin disebabkan terlalu banyak perkara yang perlu dilakukan dan ada banyak cuti di tengah2 sem. Kertas terakhir untuk final exam baru selesai petang tadi. Sungguh2 aku study untuk subjek tu, sampai jatuh cinta sudah padanya. Pastilah aku punya sebab untuk study sungguh2. Sungguh2 yang aku sendiri rasa macam tak percaya aku boleh buat macam tu. Carry mark membimbangkan, jadi aku berusaha untuk menyelamatkan diri dengan final exam ni. Perkara mengejutkan pulak berlaku, paper second last yang aku rasa mungkin ok pula sangat3 membimbangkan. Soalan lain terus daripada soalan midterm exam dulu. Aku study tekun jugak, tapi kurang berbanding yang last paper ni. Hmm...bersangka baik pada usaha yang telah dilakukan. Moga2 hasilnya tidak mengecewakan. Sem ni ada 3 subjek pembunuh. Cuma belum tentu siapa akan terbunuh.

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Langit cantik sangat, bulan bulat. Partner aiskrem aku dah pulang ke rumah, dia dah habis exam awal lagi dan pulang untuk berpraktikal. Jadi aku ditinggalkan tanpa teman unwind dengan aiskrem di bawah bintang. Sayang sungguh...malam ni langit sangat cantik. Moga2 kita masih ada jodoh untuk bereskrem lagi.

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Macam sem lepas juga, habis exam tak memberi keseronokan sangat, banyak perkara tidak selesai, dan sedikit penyesalan. Astagfirullah.. Perlukan tidur, beberapa jam tidur hari2 lepas sudah terkorban.